The True Me............Hidden

I realize I'm 39 years old but don't act like it. What does a 39 year old act like? What should they act like? There are lots of "39" year olds on TV and in movies I should be acting like. But I am not an actress. I have found that I can't "act" a certain way and be true to who I am. There is a certain level of maturity that one must emulate, but I'm not always being that way. I feel like I'm hiding my true self while trying to act more adult. I hate feeling like I am hiding and not being me, but sometimes it is better to hide. Sometimes I let my true self out, but mostly I feel hidden from the world. I want to be me, but the way I am is not always an "acceptable" way to be. Things I consider a vital part of myself......Things I want to scream to the world.....So many wonderful things about myself will remain...............hidden.